I see treacherous mountain peaks gradually rising above zenith, to my left. I have covered some good distance wandering in the low-lying region surrounded by exquisite flora and fauna. In the journey, I was tested to survive with each breath. In contrast, some of my engendered fear born out of trepidation drove me to some places which were even more daunting to cross. It seems tempting to explore at times, but often the cost of going against our instinct is severe and irreparable.
Finally, I pull myself and carried my gears to embark on a new journey into the mountains. I stumbled upon the rock with my first foot forward and looked back to see the deep void I left. I thank my guiding star for being my constant companion though very distant. But I feel merely the presence of something or someone significant energizes us to overcome any untoward events, even it’s you who have to face it. I kept walking and thinking about the past when I realized that I am just encircling the place. I already left the turn behind, as what my navigation says. Dangling in the past has lead to emotional hijacking, thus causing aberration. One has to be cognizant of the nature of their thoughts lest they may not become contagious.
The sun will set in a couple of hours as I can fixate my gaze to see the astonishing reddish sunny halo. I aim to cover as much distance so that I have enough time to fix my shelter before the night falls. Since the way is gradually turning uphill and narrower. So I think to rest at some decent spot during the night and start early the next day. But if that is the case, I would have rested on the bank as I haven’t covered much distance from there. I think I made the wrong choice, but I can’t detour either, so let’s make a course correction. The more I think about more insecurity broods. Your thoughts have a powerful influence on your psyche. It lets you believe which doesn’t even exist and creates a surrounding for the manifestation of such nasty thoughts. There is nothing wrong or right; it’s all about perception. However, thinking about all the aspects before making any decision is important. If you believe in yourself, then you will be able to control the outcome at any moment.
I am here in the middle of nowhere for quite a long time. The place is dark and horrible, calm and unnerving. I don’t know what time it is since I lost a couple of things down the journey, including my watch. I am not sure why I am here, what I left, and where I am heading. Although, I was never scared of walking such places. But when it is finally happening, I feel numbness. It must be the reflection of my thoughts as I always dreamt of going past my previous life. Whether this pilgrimage will bring peace or not don’t know but right now, I am scared. It is so quiet that even I hear the reverberation of my breathing.
With my parched throat, I am desperately expecting a source of water to quench my thirst. I am moving at the edge of the gigantic dense pine forest as I see the moonlight glaring through the trees from my right at every step or two. And as soon as I hit the boulder, what I see is a massive stream at its magical best. It is rightly said when you really want something; the universe conspires for you to reveal it. I am standing on a rocky bank with a clear sky above, and I see the brightest star inside the halo of the sensual crescent moon. The gust of wind brought some fragrance that was bizarre and unfamiliar. If I sat, I am not sure to lift the heaviness of my beaten body again. I am dazed to see the water throbbing under the silver lining. But I chose to move forward not very far from and along the shore quickly after filling up the water bottle, be the star my guide. Beauty deceives many times, so word of the wise is to give a second thought. I wish I would have thought the same for some decisions that I took. Anyway, people learn from the mistakes, which make them human indeed.
I feel no more threatened under this vast wilderness rather I am worried about the profoundness of my thoughts that these rocks, rivers, trees, valleys, mountains can listen. With the sweet melody of morning birds, I see the new dawn inside the valley as I finally sit to welcome the sun. I never knew what the simple pleasure of washing tired feet and lying on the rock feels like. As I fall with my half feet inside the water, all my pains seem washed away. What if the moment freeze leaving out everything and get lost in the world of our ancestors. There are no calls and messages to reply and wait for, no meetings, no presentations, no formalities. It just only me and my solitude. With this thought, I finally sleep to wake up to the reality with a coffee. But the journey now actually begins.