Life shouldn’t be a zero-sum game, but how do we make sure it wouldn’t? Sometimes we stumble upon a big zero dwindling either side of an infinite axis aka experience. We will never realize on which side we might land but we may always choose to be optimistic. However, the moot is, our experience is so dynamic that we never realize that the goal post had already been shifted forcing us to recalibrate our vision. Taking control of the circumstances that lead up to change is far-fetched. Instead, we can make our experiences richer by simply not stumbling upon a zero rather embracing the things with open eyes per se senses.
Undoubtedly, 2021 was very painful for most ofus. It etched some deep wound that is hard to heal. Even though we weathered the storm gallantly but it took the most from us; be it physical or mental. The almost gone year taught us very tough lessons from bizarre experiences which cornered us vehemently. It relentlessly made us aware of our deepest fear leaving us in mental agony with our futile efforts to get life back on track. To some it went far in smashing ruthlessly with the biggest truth of life; that it goes on, no matter what. So either you accept it wholeheartedly or get bogged down. I personally came across a situation thatmade me realize that sometimes giving up a good fight is not losing. It’s a naive effort of our soul to move on and open up to daunting or never done before activities to find peace and joy.
Now,when I retrospect on how few situations transpired in such a manner and how I could have handled it differently,my own limitations or hardwired beliefs surfaced. I randomly picked up “The Great Mental Models Volume 1: General Thinking Concepts” by Shane Parrish and it indeed refined my understanding. The book broadly talks about Occam’s razor principle which states that “a simpler explanation or solution to the problem is more likely to be correct than a complicated one.” However, on mulling over the facts, I found the simpler solution although the correct one but it’s tough to act. And then the principle of acceptance comes in when you have to just live the moment irrespective of the outcome.
At some point in time, you will finally realize that no one had ever left you; rather, you astray in an unchartered zone or foolishly stepped into a fiery pyre. The huge void that often reverberates on the expanse of solitude posses both the characteristics of virtues and vices. After coming thus far in despair, the silence may feel assuaging. The ebb of niggling thoughts finally dies over the sea of time and space. And it will give you a new lease on life. The scientific notion that space and time are intertwined as a fabric is astonishingly applicable to our metaphysical world. When I have space to grow, I will have time to think about bestowing life with its true purpose of attaining higher consciousness. It is in those hours of pulsating emotions when an opportunity from the divine to elevate strikes through a shabby soul. When nothing is working, nothing is working indeed. So hold on, take a breath, and close your eyes to paint the situation onto the broader canvas of life. And in the process, color all your emotions and pass them through a narrow slit to witness an emerging white light unfolding new dawn into your life.
Piecing together a ripped soul entangled in an emotional juggle is excruciatingly painful. The unweathered marks from unhealed wounds persist for you to realize how far you have come in the pursuit whenever you think of giving up. We often undermine the importance of morning rituals due to our latitude or whatever reason, whereas it plays a vital role in our positive mental conditioning. You have to make a choice once and have to manage it daily with self-discipline. In the end, it will be worth remembering all these struggles as a testament of the human will to rise above every time whenever cornered.
Life gives us many choices to choose for ourselves, but choices made in unawareness are mostly not meant for us. Have you ever observed the chirping sound of a bird, the rustling of leaves, the earthy smell after rain? If you did, you were just “being” in the most simple yet natural experiences of life. The time slips away like sand from the hand in a blink to notice the beauty around. We rush through our days, so engrossed in our work, weighing, assessing, judging, lingering in the past, or anticipating the future, and repeat it every day like a robot devoid of feeling the nature in and around.
When you start doing an activity that makes you uncomfortable, you don’t like it, but still, you work upon it. This helps cultivate consciousness that slowly seeps into our lives; in one way, it is the reality, experiencing the very moment. More than being aware of your actions, it’s about appreciating life as it unfolds. Sadhguru, in his speech, once said-“There may have been some moments in your life when you truly felt compassion towards someone or something. In those moments, all your personality, who you are, what you are, everything would have melted. Nothing would have been there. You are simply there in the moment”.
So, consciously following your action, “your bliss” is what follows you; it’s nothing extraordinary. It’s as simple as dancing to your favorite song, lingering over a loving message, enjoying a beautiful piece of music, cycling to your favorite place & doing all that your heart says in that very moment. When this happens, our perceived idea of unhappiness dwarfs, and our disappointments look smaller than we thought. The negative chatter in our mind takes a back seat. You consciously become aware of your actions & thoughts, reconnecting to the moment; you’re in, to the beauty and the bliss around you.
I see treacherous mountain peaks gradually rising above zenith, to my left. I have covered some good distance wandering in the low-lying region surrounded by exquisite flora and fauna. In the journey, I was tested to survive with each breath. In contrast, some of my engendered fear born out of trepidation drove me to some places which were even more daunting to cross. It seems tempting to explore at times, but often the cost of going against our instinct is severe and irreparable.
Finally, I pull myself and carried my gears to embark on a new journey into the mountains. I stumbled upon the rock with my first foot forward and looked back to see the deep void I left. I thank my guiding star for being my constant companion though very distant. But I feel merely the presence of something or someone significant energizes us to overcome any untoward events, even it’s you who have to face it. I kept walking and thinking about the past when I realized that I am just encircling the place. I already left the turn behind, as what my navigation says. Dangling in the past has lead to emotional hijacking, thus causing aberration. One has to be cognizant of the nature of their thoughts lest they may not become contagious.
The sun will set in a couple of hours as I can fixate my gaze to see the astonishing reddish sunny halo. I aim to cover as much distance so that I have enough time to fix my shelter before the night falls. Since the way is gradually turning uphill and narrower. So I think to rest at some decent spot during the night and start early the next day. But if that is the case, I would have rested on the bank as I haven’t covered much distance from there. I think I made the wrong choice, but I can’t detour either, so let’s make a course correction. The more I think about more insecurity broods. Your thoughts have a powerful influence on your psyche. It lets you believe which doesn’t even exist and creates a surrounding for the manifestation of such nasty thoughts. There is nothing wrong or right; it’s all about perception. However, thinking about all the aspects before making any decision is important. If you believe in yourself, then you will be able to control the outcome at any moment.
I am here in the middle of nowhere for quite a long time. The place is dark and horrible, calm and unnerving. I don’t know what time it is since I lost a couple of things down the journey, including my watch. I am not sure why I am here, what I left, and where I am heading. Although, I was never scared of walking such places. But when it is finally happening, I feel numbness. It must be the reflection of my thoughts as I always dreamt of going past my previous life. Whether this pilgrimage will bring peace or not don’t know but right now, I am scared. It is so quiet that even I hear the reverberation of my breathing.
With my parched throat, I am desperately expecting a source of water to quench my thirst. I am moving at the edge of the gigantic dense pine forest as I see the moonlight glaring through the trees from my right at every step or two. And as soon as I hit the boulder, what I see is a massive stream at its magical best. It is rightly said when you really want something; the universe conspires for you to reveal it. I am standing on a rocky bank with a clear sky above, and I see the brightest star inside the halo of the sensual crescent moon. The gust of wind brought some fragrance that was bizarre and unfamiliar. If I sat, I am not sure to lift the heaviness of my beaten body again. I am dazed to see the water throbbing under the silver lining. But I chose to move forward not very far from and along the shore quickly after filling up the water bottle, be the star my guide. Beauty deceives many times, so word of the wise is to give a second thought. I wish I would have thought the same for some decisions that I took. Anyway, people learn from the mistakes, which make them human indeed.
I feel no more threatened under this vast wilderness rather I am worried about the profoundness of my thoughts that these rocks, rivers, trees, valleys, mountains can listen. With the sweet melody of morning birds, I see the new dawn inside the valley as I finally sit to welcome the sun. I never knew what the simple pleasure of washing tired feet and lying on the rock feels like. As I fall with my half feet inside the water, all my pains seem washed away. What if the moment freeze leaving out everything and get lost in the world of our ancestors. There are no calls and messages to reply and wait for, no meetings, no presentations, no formalities. It just only me and my solitude. With this thought, I finally sleep to wake up to the reality with a coffee. But the journey now actually begins.
Life and death are two faces of the same coin; however, only once in a lifetime death choose us as if it has an agreement with the life that happens every day. Something which we already committed to is life per se. But usually, while going along with life, things get awry, and we turn ignorant. We push ourselves so hard in realizing our fantasies that life in itself oozes for help. We get so attached with the things as if our life hangs on them.
The world will thrive as usual without us; rather, it would be a better place to live. Thus relaxing and practicing sporadic aloofness from the chores is beneficial for healthy living. We are living in a dynamic world, and our existence is fragile. We can’t be so sure about anything where things change in a blink. From the minute we came into this world, we were vying for peace and happiness unconsciously. But it’s hard to find. Because it’s within, and we are looking outwards. In this ordered chaos being a modern yogi could be the savior, the one who knows the art of balancing attachment and detachment at the same time.
Our existence is precious, and we must utilize our full potential. But ask for yourselves, is that all you were longing for, and is that it? Well, whatever it is, save some time to breathe. However, you will be elated for nominated in the league of so-called intellectuals at the end of the day. But, it doesn’t make any sense unless you did some very simple or, to some people, weirdest thing like thoughtlessly sitting for a minute or consciously reading this article.
All creative thinkers and writers embody a split personality. But in no way do they portray a false persona. The closer one gets to them more astonishing they appear. At times they get bombastic in depicting the duplicity of this world. But who are they? Fascinating, aren’t they? These creatures create a facade to indulge with worldly desires, sometimes up to the level of amalgamation. But they never lose their mind and always know what, why, when, and how? And, slyly sneaks amid all the commotions, to enjoy the date with self. They seek inspiration in doing to understand the vagaries of human life by injecting themselves as a test specimen.
In whichever way you leave them, you may always expect the best out of them. Even in plucky moments, their engraved feelings carved out in anger and frustration may seem beautiful. Or their splendid narration of a love story maybe just a figment of their imagination. A writer lives in his world of metaphors and remains secluded only to infuse every corner with his thoughts. And at the end, after playing the other side of his character while savouring every moment of life. He finds himself in the reflection of his thoughts. A writer never dies, nor he lives alone, he leaves behind his imagination in an illusionary world.
When you go sail on your will and instincts, all the dark energy awakens and make you realize at every moment, being realistic is more important than to dream. That said, you start doubting yourself and may detour. But believe me, just ask yourself and go with the flow. However, something which sounds obnoxious in the first place and doesn’t incite that gut feeling must be taken care of. But unleash yourself, walk through the lightest and darkest alleys, trust your instincts. Maybe the world will never accept you, or you may go wrong, but every time you lose yourself, you will find a home in your heart.
It’s hard to believe for people that how you can be so right while being nurtured in a malicious, lusty, and materialistic world of short term pleasures. But remain what you are; people will rob your emotions, test your patience, and think whatnot. You should never stop believing in yourself and try to accommodate. If their heart has been tarnished and rubbed under the illusionary world of desires must not hold true for you. That, however, doesn’t mean you were untouched by the ethos of this world of showbiz. The world tried to steal a part of you, but every time you smacked on their face knowingly or unknowingly. Your soul has always been taken care of. As your desire for metaphysical expansion was so high that all the negative energy imbued in nothingness.
These natural forces will strip you down to your soul and make you realise how vulnerable you are even though it may leave you unpunished but will you remain untouched and unharmed from the nasty and creepy thoughts you sow in your subconscious mind….?